So very long ago?

Its been so long.

Workplace hazards

I have always imagined how Terengganu and Kelantan will be like when its the monsoon season. Now that I am experiencing it here, it is exactly as how I have imagined. The people here kept saying this year is the worst monsoon hit year, and it was not that bad the previous years.
Yeah right. huhuhuhu

Anyhow, I got to relax around no thanks to the frequent landslide at my workplace. There is even one time when I almost become a statistic contributor. My car was stuck because of the thick flowing mud from the cliff. I had to call for help because barely a meter away from me, is another cliff -> downwards. My car and I are inching towards the fall of the century.

To add to my fear, I am witnessing another landslide, consists of big boulders right in front of me. It was 10 meters in front of me I think. I quickly re-access my situation. I looked up and saw a big tree trunk, waiting to strike me at the right moment. It was resting on a mud hole, waiting it to be filled. I can also see waves of mud washing and rolling down big rocks along the road as if they were pebbles. Chamness.... The terror of nature.
And I am still stuck in my car!!!!!

Alas, my savior came. A wheel loader, pulling my car using a wire-rope. My car almost plunged down the cliff, with me IN it, because the mud is just too thick and slippery. After the loader cleared a path, I quickly took off. Barely minutes later, the big loader was pushed down by the mud......
The terror of the nature...

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She’s staring at me
I’m sitting wondering what she’s thinking
Nobody’s talking cause’ talking just turns into screaming
And now yes I’m yelling over her, she yelling over me,
All that that means is neither of us are listening,

And what’s even worse?
that we don’t even remember why we’re fighting
So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothing, crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won’t let it go for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be for
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it’s gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can’t sleep through the pain
Can’t sleep through the pain

Girl I don’t want to go to bed, mad at you
And I don’t want you to go to bed, mad at me
No, I don’t want to go to bed mad at you
And I don’t want you to go to bed, mad at me
Oh no no no

And it gets me upset
Girl when you’re constantly accusing
Asking questions like you already know
We’re fighting this war
Baby when both of us are losing
This ain’t the way that love is supposed to go

Whoa, Whatever happened to working it out?
We fall into this place
where you ain’t backing down and I ain’t backing down,
So what the hell do we do now?
It's all for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be for
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it’s gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can’t sleep through the pain
Can’t sleep through the pain

Girl I don’t want to go to bed, mad at you
And I don’t want you to go to bed, mad at me
No, I don’t want to go to bed mad at you
And I don’t want you to go to bed, mad at me

Oh baby this love ain’t gone be perfect,
Perfect, perfect oh oh
And just how good it’s gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
As long as everything is alright between us
Before we go to sleep
Baby, we’re gonna be happy, oh

Abandon Ship?

I might have to let go of my 1st ongoing project / extra income.
It is creating too many problems and complicated relationships for me. It is draining me physically and emotionally; and I'm not even making millions RM out of it.

Should I salvage what I have there to focus on the not-yet-ongoing 2nd project? I've met so many people through my 1st project. Ok, its a functioning karaoke outlet. A not-so-legal (in license aspect) but a very "clean" (in EVERY aspect) outlet. I am not losing money at the moment and I dont foresee any lost in the future. The problem is that I dont see any huge profit either to forfit the complications invoked.

The abandon ship call has been rung. Its just a matter of me pushing it or pulling it through. I do have reasons to pull back the call. The question is whether its worth it for me to stop the call. Is it better for me to give it a lil push to make the call through?

Should I think about the forgoing the extra income? Should I think of the girls' welfare? Should I think of my precious sleeping hours? Should I think about my messed up complicated relationship? Should I think about everything or anything at all?

Irresponsible business partner

I've sold 2 of my favourite stocks. They are my favourite because they are the only money making stock I am holding. It is all due to empty words by one of my 2nd project business partner. He is supposed to be pumping in money from his side since a month ago. Till now, he has been evasive. Do he thinks he can budge in when all is well and completed? Thats not how starting up a business goes. Of course you can budge into a proven profitable business; but the price, is just not the same.

It is also due to him I've stepped into my 1st project. Honestly, I didnt have any plan on starting up on the 1st. Its not really generating income at my desired level. The returns does not match the initial start up cost. He proposed it and I went along for my 2nd project to kick off. Now that the 1st project shown such results, he wanted to jump ship and focus on my idea - the 2nd project.
He didnt even come out with a single cent for the 1st one and it is now completed. What an asshole.

Now, should I even let him step into the 2nd one even if he pumps in money at the last minute? I doubt so. I will just find another, or figure out a way somehow.

5k income

Let's face it. 5k income a month is not really a lot for many people. So many empty pots declaring 5k incomes, over 10k incomes all over the net. Maybe it is to compare who's e-penis is bigger. Its like calling each other noob in Dota, only worse.

For me, I have told myself to try getting to that level before I am 30 years old. Like the above, I have heard too many comments brushing it off as a simple thing to do. Cooking a maggi mee cup is even harder, so I heard. Empty pots aside, I know its not that easy, it might not be very hard either.

Without me realising it, I have accomplised my mission. Yippe!!!!! Yay!!!!! Congratulations ahBan. I didnt realise that it was accomplised right on my buttday. Well, my buttday is at the beginning of the month, so.....
huhuhu.

It is not really stable though. The income is fixed, but what I mean by not being stable is because my another project is still needing influx of cash. My 1st project which enabled my rm5k a month drained 1/2 of my savings. I am in no position to drain another 1/2. Headache. Especially when the project is in the midst of kick off.

Well, since 5k target is done, I am planning for the 5 figure mark. Even a 10k is a 5 figure right? Timeline? I think it should be achieved before I am 30 years old. I wonder if it is possible. If my 2nd project is smooth, I will be well ahead of the timeline.


p.s.
I am dem sick now. Im not sure if its H1N1, or just 'kena hujan'
High Fever, flu, cough. Haihs

Happy Buttday to me!!! (belated)

Yesterday was my buttday. Weee!!!!!!!
Well, at this age, a birthday is not something that I should get too excited about. I know its just another day to me. Its just another day to others.

But the actual fact is, I did feel a bit humanised yesterday. I felt my existance, are felt by the people around me. And that gave me the reason to remain being me for years to come.

1st off is the concern shown by my sis, and also my mum on my presense in KL. Too bad Im having quite a few obligation here on the land of the dead; making me unable to go back on that weekend.
Family will always be family.

2nd off is the 'forced' birthday bash by my workers here. My kala-ok workers.
I even gave a lot of excuse just to escape the bash. But they insisted; and I gave in. Thats when I was humbled by their sincerity and attempt to shove in some joy into my life.

About my birthday wish. I thought of it for very long. I know what I wanted; and its not something monetary.
Eventhough I am now involved in some business needing lots of luck and effort, I never put in any wish in those matter. To me, monetary things are only a mean to achieve something else that I really really want in my life. And that thing, does not exist in my life yet. I am still hoping it will appear again.

So my wish - is for my next year's birtday wish to come true.
:)